Hallucinations Strides Within Me

Story of the day ;)

Amazingly , I got in to watch Wanted at Summit today . It was so hillarious . Afifah and I was so nervous and our palms were sweating like there was no living tomorrow . We thought of watching Hancock but turns out , it was showing at 3.50pm so instead , we just followed our instincts by buying Wanted tickets for 5 ; Amad , Ryan , Syed , Afifah & I . Convincingly , Syed had this look of a fine adult guy that could pull everything off and Alhamdulillah , berjaya atlast ! Entah macam mana , he pulled it off by looking tall , walked like an adult . Amad and Ryan wore black and so did I . I guess we all pulled it all of by looking like adults with black except Pah and Syed . By the way , I really do have to mention here that Pah looked fantastically amazing today with her Zara shirt . Pah , you nampak lawa today . I memang envy you because of that shirt you wore . Thanks for today . You made my day alot better somehow . And jeez babe , nasib baik kita dapat tengok James McAvoy shirtless . Hot sial !

The movie was good . So far , friends of mine thinks the movie was a bit 'kelentong' . Memang pon . Siapa boleh curve bullet dalam dunia ni or bend the bullets from shooting thru ? Basically , it felt fun to watch . And last last , it was a thrill . Dialogues at the very last ending ended with , " What the fuck have you been doing lately ? " . Terus habis .
Have to wait for the next one next year . Hopefully though .

OH ! I just noticed that guy played as a ' Repairman ' was in the movie NightWatch and DayWatch . A russian man . Same director who directed NightWatch and DayWatch . You guys definitely have to catch up with those 2 movies . Worth a lot macam xiao worrr .

Reporting news ;
The man who accused Anwar Ibrahim looks like a faggot . He's bloody 23 years old ! He could of gotten enough manly steroids strength to push off Anwar from sodomising him . Logically , think about it . Please , I need someone to agree with me . I know I'm right because that's how it is , Wi ? Wi ! I'll have more on the topic of ' Sodomise Accusation ' report soon .

Macam macam la happening . Macam bodoh je . Its happening again like 10 years ago and I'm so tired of trying to keep up with the same news and its totally corrupted with stupidity and sham . BIG TIME BOZOS !

Night xx .

The other day was a mellow day , my brother in law told me about this man who has this great profession in photography . I went to his flickr , he has this great vibe of binding his source of energy and method of passion to photography . It made me realise that I would be delighted to do the same . As I went thru his flickr , there was a portrait of a man which the theme is called 'Pride' connected to the subject of 7 Deadly Sins . Apparently , he had to take the photo he shot and bring it to Sweden just to have it processed . And to my astonishment , I left my mouth opened wondering how a enlighten it is to be a photography and you get to travel to another continent just to have your pictures process .

For some reason , I don't know why but I love browsing around photographers photos and just exploit around and looking at what I'm missing . Practically learn with what I know now and what I will know later on . Strange how so many things can intrigue , sticks me on and it doesn't want to let me go .

Here are the photos he took ;

As you can see , you know why I like this guy so much because he has this nurturing talent that keeps growing and growing and I'm desperately envying him but I hope for the best that I could be a natural photographer like him . One day , I'll be able to open my own business and find a way to show people how much I love taking photos of other lives which is things You yourself could see . Look around , tell me . What do you see ?

If you'd like to see more of his photos , here's the link ;
http://www.flickr.com/photos/azlijamil01

Later ;)

Last Friday , has to skip Math tuition for another extraction for a dental appointment . So far so good , one on the upper part and one for the down part . As I took it like a man , the doctor told me that I took it smoothly as it was like nothing . Plus , I like the feeling of numbness I had to suffer . Sort of like a payback of what I did wrong to those people I've hurt so I pretty much deserve it . Ok , I'm babbling :| Anyways , it went well like it did but when Dr. Rohana told me that she needed to put so much kind of blue rubber band between my teeth . I thought it was nothing . Turns out , it was the most painful thing I had to to go thru with . ITS BLOODY EXPANDING MY TEETH APART ! I couldn't grit my teeth to chew to eat , I can't even smile . Its like living in a pit hole . But the worst is over . I'm not complaining . Just had to let out the pain I had to go thru for 2 days but not so bad after all . I can finally smile but I have to really pray alot *Bismillah for this upcoming Wednesday . Hopefully , it would go well . Insyallah la , kalau tk kena screw dalam gusi ! Can't really decide what color I should use ? Purple , babyblue , light green , maroon ? BLACK ? Heh ? Entah ...

I had a new discovery on a guy name Azli Jamal . A very professional and dramatic photographer who takes dramatic images and conceptional photos . I'll deal that on later .

Gonna no dae that laddies ! ;)

I think I had pretty much enough coffee today and its definitely clotting my blood up to the highest pressure .
Just had that episode of that particular 'moment' again . It was the best feeling and I had meself smiling on my face .
Call me crazy ! :D

Oh oh , I caught up on the act of Wanted movie trailer . Dang it , it was awesome . Angie was hot and James was steaming hot ! I'm losing myself for that movie in 2 weeks . It'll come out soon and I need my partner with me to watch it so I could jump my butt off the seat . Cepat keluar cepat keluar cepat keluar !

Oh shite , tuition next week . Have to skip math because of dental appointment to get another extract . Then , I'll wear the real bling on Wednesday . Crooked man crooked ! Ini malam , I went thru my sister's make up bag and golly , I'd rather be ugly than to look ugly in make up . Lip gloss , mascara , blusher , face exposure . Nak jadi clown ke apa ? I'd rather be CHARLIE CHAPLIN ! Speaking of which , the other day , I did some research on Charlie Chaplin . Had some history done on it and oh boy , did it grab me eye out . I'll write it out once I get the report done on him . I'm a junkie of for Chaplin .

Big fish .

Yesterday as I was praying hard on Al-Fatihah , had to go on a dental appointment which I have to say , was really not that bad . Got 2 tooth pulled out and my lips got numbed all over for over an hour . Can't feel nothing ! Meng (Jasmine , sister) was there to accompany me along while I expected the experience that I face was to be like a torture chamber . Seems I was wrong and Alhamdulillah , saying Bismillah for gazillion times gave me the will to relax and to end it all in one piece . Kept bleeding all over the whole day , had to change cotton butts for over 10 to 20 times . Quite of a piece of work but then , it felt sort of fun to experience things like that for once . And the whole amount to extract 2 of my teeth out was $$$$ . That amount of money ! To hell , I can't even imagine the amount my dad has to spend putting the real bling on my teeth . Would feel dorky later because I have full of set of the nerd personality as in first , glasses ; check . Second  , chubby face with shabby or neat hair ; check . And third , BRACES ; soon to be ticked .

Thanks to Papa for having to share your large amoun of money for me . One day , I'll work real hard and give it all back to you . Same goes to you Mama . I love you both equally the same !

Today I attended art class with my love , Amira Hani . Consider it fun because there were loads of things I learned and it definitely wasn't a waste of my time . Spending time with Hani really is one of the bestest time . I get to talk to her about personal stuff and she would say , " Juey , thank you for listening . " Well , your welcome my dear . Y'know I'm here to listen or to shout or to scream or to squirm whenever you need me ;) Love you Hani <3

My my my , as I thought , my luck will turn and it has . It seemed like I was right after all . I'll get lucky eventually .
Probably , you'll see me walking around with a pink face and you wonder , " She's effing crazy man ! "
And so you shall .

Cut down the days of my holidays ,

2 and a half months to SPM .

Cheers now lads . 

After having such a hard time coping with the fact that there might be several months till THE day , I just had to profusely cry because I miss the family back in London especially my very own little midget . Eii bontot , I miss you . I'm gonna kiss your bouncy cheeks till its flat out . Ngauuum :)

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Nak gigit pipi , nak join ? *gigit gigit gigit

More soon .

Since I have all the stories under my wings , I can finally release them . After keeping them inside with no one in sight I could tell to , I have my magical fingers to type in sensational words I have in my head in here .

2 days ago , after having so much worries under our feet , we opened our eyes for having news of Kak Mimi delivering our newborn baby Arianna Sofarra . As far as we go , we have photos that they posted in so I am deliberately willing to show you the familiar face I've seen 2 years ago .

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 As it should , she's part of our family whom we're proud to have now . Our love expands even faster than ever and we are bless with the outcome of it all . We hope gladly that we'll be able to be there for her soon in London . And to that I hold , she'll have my love as I have for her as well . We love you Arianna Sofarra :)

Mom got a call from Brother Joe , it has been confirmed that the name given to our newborn baby love is

Arianna Sofarra Bte Johann Ariff

Oh man , that is such a strong name don't u find ? When I first heard it , my expression went , " Holy hell ! Do we have an Arabic born kid  " Kind of stupid but hey , a little lame joke never hurts ;P

Right now I officially welcome Arianna Sofarra Bte Johann Ariff being abroad to our family . Welcome Sweetheart :D I just can't wait to see her and hold her . She must be so chubbily adorable ! Her name has 2 n's and her middle name , 2 r's . Baby Qiqi has 2 n's and her middle name , 2 y's . Brother Joe sure inherited a strong genetic maturity in him . The dude knows how to pick a name when it comes to his kids . Bless him and bless Kak Mimi too !

More good new about baby Arianna soon *accelerate laughs

I have the photos of the barbeque on Wednesday night so , enjoy .

We had quite of a best night in our entire lives to remember it . I'll cherish them with all the dignity that has left in me . I love you guys alot and hopefully , our strong friendship will last eternally . I thank you for everything !

Cheers lovies !

HEARHY HEARHY BLOGGERS !

Great news from the land of Eastern Europe , LONDON !

A NEWBORN NIECE HAS BEEN DELIVERED ! :D

Isn't that exciting ? Heard the wonderful news this morning while I was flustered with my head drooping down , Jasmine told me that we have a niece on board . Welcome to the family little missy ! She was born at 2am local time , 7pm London time . We not know yet the name of our little new angel but we'll hear news from him (Abang Joe , baba) soon enough . Its a pity that we didn't have any precious chances to see her being delivered . Take this , she's British born :D God , I found that a psycheful thing . I'm so proud ! Alhamdulillah , she has been brought abroad safely and peacefully . Mimi , (sister in law) is very much alive and conscious . I'm sure she is as joy as we are here in Subang J . Just another few months left till my SPM's finish and I'll go backpack around Europe again and go hitchhike to London . Not even breaking a sweat of it . Will have her photos as soon as possible . Dad said she's on lifting for 3kg . That's more than Qistinna has been 2 years ago . My ridiculous expression was so awful , I ended up saying , " whoa , she's fat ! " :O Awful I was but I just can't wait to see her piggy face and blushful cheeks . I'm already thinking that I'll babysit the both of them soon or awhile now . Time is all I could think of and getting out of here is what I'm so eager to do for such a long time . Out of this dreadful place . Time time time , ticks around the clock . When it stops , so will you .

While I was asleep with a big smile on my face , there were words inside my head . I didn't know why I had so much thinking when I was suppose to shut my eyes but I was so lifted with happiness that had cause so my pain on my jaw . So hear me out ;

The studded beauty that reflects in your eyes , the great value of your life has lift upon my sane , the heredity you inherit from both 2 sides of strong parent that courageous you to bring out with a heart of a lion , we welcome you with our open hearts where we share love and affection . The love that you will possess is beyond anyone's imagination .

It's lame but who gives a fudge anyway .

More loose ends on what happened on Wednesday night . Shaza & Wawa were the organizer for the party , and course they worked hard for it . The food , money that have to ask from the night partiers there . Wasn't easy . Course there was a small complication with the pizza because I think I sort of miscalculated the manage to listen to the operator for the delivery . Wawa was quite pissed at me I guess so I have to apologise again for the miscalculation with the pizza issue . I'm so sorry Wawa !

On top of that , it was all a fun time to remember . Pity I didn't bring my SLR because the photos I took with my digital weren't that good but I'll work on that so put no worries to your heads now . I apologise for the unconvenience . But we had the rest of the time having awesomeness spare talking and laughing . I realised how loud I was , people getting annoyed by me especially Azam . I don't even know why I argued with him that night which was a mistake . I went to have fun and I went there to eat and laugh but never to accumulate such fights with him about silly things . Should of ignored him so I wouldn't have to be such a smart-mouth with him . But whatever with that anyhoo , I kind of had fun teasing him about his whole issue of emotions . I know you're reading Azam ;P I'm just kidding , like you don't know me any better . HA-HA . Unfortunately that night , Afiq managed to go to the liquor shop and bought one . I think he got himself drunk with just 2 cups of it . Thank god , there wasn't any trouble that happened . Afiq my darling , please don't drink ever on parties because I love you too much I'm scared you'll cause trouble with you being drunk so don't do it again eh ;) You're my friend so I care for you . Understand with what I said alright darling ? ;)

I hung out with Ana for the rest of the night , not really but she hung out with that Chinese guy so I guess they were both annoyed by my big mouth . I'll shut up the next time there's a party , I'm making so much riot I don't know when to stop blabbing while I have ulcer in my mouth , Dammit . But top of it all , I had a great time . The bbq chickens were good and the pizza was stimulating and bless me , I didn't get tempted with the buds and drinking . Though , I'm beginning to have this fluttering feelings for a guy that I wanted to be with a long time ago that night . I hugged him and I kissed him on the cheek . I even tempered him to say that I want to make out with him and surprisingly , he agreed . Crazy ? I guess I was . Though , I wanted to . I should have made out with him whenever I stood the chance to . *sigh Sadly , I didn't . Maybe next time , I'll make an attempt to kidnap him and go under the bushes and do free sex . HAHA , shit . That's all I could say , I had BLISTERING time with my own friends there . I love you all and thank you for your laughters and painful jaws that you cause me .  

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I have photos but I'll put them under a new blog . Enjoy them later boys and girls .

Until then . 

I had myself on going with the matter that runs through my mind about my childhood days in which I can't possibly remember entirely or to service it with my gratitude . Surely , I wouldn't want to remember about the disservice I did but it kept rolling in like a lap time watch that is unstoppable . Memories that faded , guilt that shuts in . I hope one day , I would make immense of how I've done with my self-esteem issue .

In some other days unlike any other , dad would sit me down when no one could have with him . As it should , he voices out about alot of other things . What I did , what I should do , what I should be doing . Speeding things up was beyond my reach and I never want it to end . Tears coming out and I knew that at the time that I had my duty to run off to . Socially , I don't smoke or drink , I'm proud and so he is . He knew that whatever comes out of me intentionally or unintentionally is beyond him . He loved me as I am now and as I was and but I never forget about the past I've put behind me . Feelings I've hurt , the shame I've compelled to , the trouble I caused , a total ruin of dissapointment . I pray 5 times day faithfully trying to control my inner beast of my uncontrollable welcoming life of a painful person . My dad could have done the same . Eventually , just every damn day .

Some of those times when I knew that I was about to have a little sister , like any other , jealousy strikes in . I never knew what a bless it was to have a younger one who looks up to you no matter what you do . You're considered as an icon to them . So much pain and suffering she had to go through me . I've hurt her so much , the dignifying hearts that shatters into million tiny glasses with your disgusted reflection on it . I hurted her but I never intended to . Making up to her is the only thing left to it . Saying sorry was already done to it but what more can I do ? I want to give her love , my support , my hopeless gratitude for having her to love me as her own sister . For looking up to me as I am like her mother she has now . Hoping that I could make her smile and take a moment to listen to her random stories at school , her friends , her life . There are so much more for thus , I'm proud to be there for her . Be there when she's blue and gloomy . Be there whenever she needed to share things , be there whenever she needed at least someone , to comfort and to cherish her with an open heart . I'm sorry for everything and I know that what I'm going through is a punishment for what I've done to you , my sweet darling kid sister . I really am sorry .

Heroes of the day ;

Yemenn Adlin

Papa

There you have it , heroes of the day . My new celebratents :)

I love you thrice a day .

Until then .